Balance

Mountain goats in Ouray, CO

bal·ance

  

noun

1.

a state of equilibrium or equipoise; equal distribution of weight, amount, etc.

2.

something used to produce equilibrium; counterpoise.

3.

mental steadiness or emotional stability; habit of calm behavior, judgment, etc.

4.

a state of bodily equilibrium

(from dictionary.com)

Balanced Rock, Arches National Park, UTAH

Is that a multiple choice question?  I'd like to pick the third choice... I've been more the opposite, feeling phrenetic and frazzled, despite the weekend-ly yoga and 10 minutes post-yoga pseudo-meditation where I can't really turn off the racing to-do list in my head.

I'm getting worn down by the 5 months of  applying for jobs, interviewing for jobs, second interviewing, SKYPE interviewing, phone interviewing, writing  resumes, re-revising resumes, thank-you letter-writing post interviews, negotiating jobs, declining jobs, trial-ing jobs, learning new jobs, pretending "I really, really want your job," eating alone in a hotel,  living out of a suitcase (okay 3 suitcases, but still.)

Landscape Arch, UTAH

No one should feel sorry for me.  I haven't had to do my own sheets and towels or vacuuming for 2 months. I have a laptop filled with family/friend photos that shuffle and slide- show for me even when I'm stuck 6 hours in an airport trying to get home for a visit. I haven't had over 1.6 inches of snow at a time. (The Grand Junction News station actually reports snow here in .6 of an inch.) Two fourths of my family got out to visit me. I talk to Judd almost every night. He still loves me despite my indecision. I HAVE a job. I have options. I have supportive family and friends. Something will change soon. I'll find balance.